{"id":33260,"date":"2012-12-02T10:04:49","date_gmt":"2012-12-02T09:04:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.hcandersen-homepage.dk\/?page_id=33260"},"modified":"2015-12-16T13:55:05","modified_gmt":"2015-12-16T12:55:05","slug":"andersen-what-was-he-like-by-elias-bredsdorff-nr-8-a-trust-and-doubt","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/www.hcandersen-homepage.dk\/?page_id=33260","title":{"rendered":"Andersen: What was he like? by Elias Bredsdorff Nr. 8 a. Trust and doubt"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.hcandersen-homepage.dk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/08\/hca144.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter\" title=\"hca144\" src=\"https:\/\/www.hcandersen-homepage.dk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/08\/hca144.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"383\" height=\"600\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><a href=\"http:\/\/creativecommons.org\/licenses\/by-nc-nd\/3.0\/\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.hcandersen-homepage.dk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/07\/80x15.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"80\" height=\"15\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Andersen in 1868, photographed by Georg E. Hansen.\u00a0 Kilde:\u00a0<a href=\"http:\/\/www.kb.dk\">Det Kongelige Bibliotek<\/a><\/p>\n<p><strong>Andersen : What was he like ? by Elias Bredsdorff Nr. 8 \u00a0\u00a0Trust and doubt<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>At times Andersen felt so close to God that it was natural for him to conclude an entry in his diary with the words: &#8220;Thank you for this day, dear God!&#8221; At other times he was filled with doubt and worry. Here are some characteristic extracts from his diaries in 1860:<\/p>\n<p>3 SEPTEMBER<\/p>\n<p>It is to me as if my spirits are weighed down by a nightmare- whence does it come, why is it there? I am strangely miserable. But I dare not ask you, God, to help me, for I don&#8217;t deserve it- why must I almost be so privileged? No one knows his destiny from one hour to the next.<\/p>\n<p>4 SEPTEMBER<\/p>\n<p>The wish to die suddenly very often comes to me.<\/p>\n<p>5 SEPTEMBER<\/p>\n<p>My mind won&#8217;t lift! Please, God, make me happy.<\/p>\n<p>27 OCTOBER<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m drifting like a bird in the gale, a bird that cannot fly and yet cannot quite fall either. O Lord! My God! have mercy on me!<\/p>\n<p>28 OCTOBER<\/p>\n<p>I am a sinner, a frail, vain person -I have been given far too many precious gifts, now I must suffer adversity, and then I complain like a spoilt child. Who listens to me? No one! No one!<\/p>\n<p>14 NOVEMBER<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s no use praying, God won&#8217;t change the course of events. In good days I cling to him, in bad days I do not support myself on his unchangeable will. I know that like a child I must ask for his forgiveness because I am being punished; please forgive me then, but I don&#8217;t want to ask the impossible. I know that in the course of time I shall succumb. Rather be oneself in abandonment than to be longing in the flames, hoping for a blessed existence which we are not going to achieve. ..Went to bed as usual in a bad mood, godless.<\/p>\n<p>20 NOVEMBER<\/p>\n<p>Up at halt-past eight, lovely sunshine. Please God, let it shine in clarity into my mind in Christianity and God.<\/p>\n<p>17 DECEMBER<\/p>\n<p>The good which I intend to do I don&#8217;t do. And the evil things I do not intend to do I do do. I have no future to look forward to.<\/p>\n<p><a title=\"Andersen: What was he like? by Elias Bredsdorff Nr. 8 b. Trust and doubt\" href=\"https:\/\/www.hcandersen-homepage.dk\/?page_id=33319\">Andersen: What was he like? by Elias Bredsdorff Nr. 8 b. Trust and doubt<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Andersen in 1868, photographed by Georg E. Hansen.\u00a0 Kilde:\u00a0Det Kongelige Bibliotek Andersen : What was he like ? by Elias Bredsdorff Nr. 8 \u00a0\u00a0Trust and doubt At times Andersen felt so close to God that it was natural for him to conclude an entry in his diary with the words: &#8220;Thank you for this day, &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.hcandersen-homepage.dk\/?page_id=33260\" class=\"more-link\">L\u00e6s mere <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Andersen: What was he like? by Elias Bredsdorff Nr. 8 a. 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